I'm sure it happens to everyone, you're driving along doing your thing and the radio starts to play a song that takes you to a very specific moment in your life. You see the memory in your mind's eye playing right before as the words chime along. You feel the moment over your entirety. It's as if you were there once again, so long as the song keeps playing. Strange phenomena. Sometimes sweet and love filled and others so far from it that you fight to get passed the song as quickly as possible as to eradicate the memory altogether with the simple switch of a station. The songs' purpose varies from sleek dance moves at middle school house parties to break-up anthems and road trip compilations. Whatever the occasion/memory it moves you.
The beauty of music is that it encompasses emotions in a way that helps you feel you are not alone. Whether it's on a grey street or wanting to party all night long, music embodies our desires, thoughts, feelings so that we don't have to say anything at all, we just ask the DJ to please play that song. Right now that song for me is actually JLo's Dinero, I really do feel it deep inside my soul..."yo quiero, yo quiero dinero, hey!". But when I am more quiet and reflective it's Dave who is steering my soundtrack.
For me, Dave Matthews Band has pretty much hit the nail on the head with at least one song per major instance in my life. I could piece together the soundtrack of my life's challenges from DMB's many albums including their acoustic tracks, Dave's solos and even just him and Tim. It fascinates me to have someone sing something that feels so real to me, that speaks for my soul. If you aren't a Dave fan you've probably logged off by now but if you are you know exactly what I mean. He so easily speaks for my most inner most self.
"She says, I pray
But then my prayer fall on deaf ears
I'm supposed to take it all myself
To get out of this place....
But the colors mix together to grey"
Grey Street still chokes me up and gives me goosebumps. How did Dave know my struggles, how did he write them so well? This is what leads folks to fan-dom, when an artist is gifted with the verse of their inner most thoughts and feelings.
My husband is a perfect example of this as he claims to be incapable of fully sharing his inner most thoughts with many. I remember when he first made me a "mixtape" on a CD and my heart broke. It was as if I was reading his personal journal. The way he chose and arranged the playlist gave me such an insight to his most inner self that it shattered me to think that this cool, confidant guy was so reflective, deep and, like me, uncertain without my having realized. The first time he told me he loved me was by embracing me in a soft dance on my front porch and singing the words to "Loving Wings" by DMB into my ear,
"You lightly lifted me away
Out of a darkness, cold and gray
And I work beneath the midday sun
My cool blue water you have come
I give to you my everything
You've given me these loving wings
and angels have all gathered round
to hear me sing my love out loud"...
Dave Matthews Band is us, as cheesy and as fan dorkiness as that might sound. Sure, I jam to Pitbull's Miami-ness, I shake my ass to Sir Mix-a-lot's "I like Big Butts" and there isn't a Lionel Richie or John Cougar Mellancamp song that I don't know but Dave sings the songs of my soul. Many years ago, a friend of ours gave us the moniker "GERNIE" for Gina and Ernie; we quickly adapted it as it felt authentically us in that we were in fact on a wondrous journey, my husband and me taking the path less traveled more often than not with a few Griswolds moments along the way and Dave singing along to the beat of our challenges but more so our hearts. Because since day one with my guy it was always..."You and me together can do anything"....and how can I not love DMB for knowing that well enough to make so many songs just for us.
You and I were not tied to the ground
Not falling but rising like rolling around
Eyes closed above the rooftops
Eyes closed we're gonna spin through the stars
Our arms wide as the sky, we're gonna ride the blue
All the way to the end of the world
To the end of the world
We can always look back at what we did
Always remembering how you and me did
Right now it's you and me forever girl
And you know, we could do better than
Anything that we did
You know that you and me
We could do anything...
Two of us together, we could do anything baby.....
Multi-tasking over-thinker that is, as you can imagine, often running late.